i dont know why tears start falling and hearts start aching, but i hope all will come to an end.
why do humans feel this way? the piercing, gut feeling cant go away.
its the matter of loving someone then letting go, having confusion or just being..

so.. not me. or the tears are for regret. where is the pain coming from?
how can i say what i mean? its undefined.. but.. it hurts.
the tears still flow, and endless amount of tissues are used.
& yes, im scared. for every possibility that he might go.
or that i might slip away. we can all still soothe the pain, by listening to the music that tells a stories that are make-believe. but nothing else is going to assure us that ' it's going to be okay. '
& the apology is impossible to forgive, not matter how many times i say sorry.
i can still remember the pain. but acting this way isnt going to help myself. so its time i've stepped up a little, reached out for something more. & silly poems and rhyming words, songs of love and comfort wouldnt be used anymore. maybe this doesnt make any sense to you. but it will soon enough, whether you're love crazy, and you cant get enough, or you're depressed and it's all comming together again. so hold my hand, and hold it tight, pick up the pieces and lets move on, cause im gonna need you here, right by my side. i cant do this alone, oh and..
im sorry.